I switched churches not too long ago. The church I grew up in just didn't have any social events and wouldn't even consider it. So I switched to a new church that has a very active young adult program. I really do like it, but somehow I just don't feel like I am one of them. This church also has a lot of rich people, and I feel like I don't belong. After all I am a teacher and don't make a lot of money. A lot of the people in my young adult group are lawyers, doctors, engineers, ect. so they are a lot better off financially than I am. I am very embarrassed by the way I grew up. I grew up with my mom living with my grandmother in her house. My mom even now struggles financially, and I'm embarrased by that. I love my mom, but I was always embarrased cause the majority of people i went to high school with had a lot of money. I remember people in my high school not being friends with me cause I wasn't from the right "social group". A lot of people I went to high school had rich fathers, whereas my dad abandoned my mom and me, so we had very little money. My mom never remarried, so she could barely afford much for me. I also struggled a lot in high school, and made horrible grades. I ended up graduating high school a year late, which is something else I'm embarrased by. I never tell people much about myself because I am so embarrased by my past. I never tell people when I really did graduate from high school because I am so embarrased by doing so horribly. I feel I'm not as good as these rich people I know. Maybe I'm jealous cause they had parents to pay for their education. I not only struggled with financing college cause my mom couldn't afford to pay for it, but struggled academically too, so it took me a long time to graduate from college. I always felt that I was stupid. In my young adult group at church which is a very large group we've had a couple new members join that went to my high school. I remember them but they don't remember me. They were quite snobby and would only be friends with people from their "social class". Thankfully these new members didn't remember who I was, and didn't even realize that we went to the same high school together. I hate feeling like I am not as good as others because of money or not being "gifted" like a lot of others who went to my high school. But people do change a lot after high school, but I am still embarrased by my past.