I'm a student teacher at a high school in Social Studies. This is a second career for me. I'm not a spring chicken by any measure. I received my bachelor's degree in history in 1995. I'm now getting my Master's degree in secondary Education. My first evaluation was terrible. My second one yesterday was also a disaster. I'm good on paper, my lesson plans, but when I go to teach I fall apart. They said that my areas of concern are pedagogy, content and delivery. Which is basically everything a teacher does. I do agree with them. Why can't I get this? Why can't I connect my lessons to actually teaching it? I have severe depression and anxiety and tend to just freeze up and forget what all I learned. I think that I'm always just not good enough for any of the jobs I've had in my 30 plus working years. I just always come up short of getting good at my jobs. I'm feeling that again now. I don't want the sacrifices I've made to be wasted. All the time I took from my family, better paying jobs to pursue the education field. I'm just so down now. I've wasted so much time and money. I wont be able to pay off my large student loans working at my husband's store as counter help.